A Torn Feeling

As you may have noticed I went with an "Autumn" based theme for the blog for right now, the reasoning for that is ... well I thought it was obvious. I LOVE AUTUMN. I absolutely love this time of year. The cool breeze, the light rain, the color of the leaves. It reminds me of my childhood in Northern California, I miss those days of walking home from school (never thought I'd say that) and the feel of Autumn in the air, coming home to the smell of fresh baked bread... mmmmmm.... My excitement for this time of year is beyond expression and my desire to be a cute little stay at home wifey is greater than ever. I spend time at work just imagining having a cute decorated Autumn themed living room/home, all the wonderful homemade meals I can make and or bake (if only I had the time to do so). The feel of Autumn is in the air, Halloween decorations will soon be emerging and believe me do I have plans for that one!Oh the memories of the past and memories to be made.

Now you may be wondering with my love for this time of year why in the world would I be having this torn feeling well I'll tell you why.... my favorite season is upon us however at the same time my sweet husband will be starting school. Now I'm not saying that I'm not happy that he is starting school because I am. I am beyond excited for him and so happy to see how happy and excited HE is about this new adventure we are about to embrace together, he is getting closer bit by bit to fulfilling his dreams, however.... I am a bit selfish.

I can't express how much I have loved these past 15 months of being married, every night coming home to my sweety, every night sitting down and having dinner with him, going to bed early or staying up late, doing what we want when we want but more importantly we got to be together. My favorite place to be is with Jake! And now I have to share my time with something else :(. I guess you could say it's a torn feeling x2 I can't wait for Autumn, I am so excited for Jake to start school .... but I have to stop being selfish ...hahahahaha sounds ridiculous I know.

I know what you might be thinking ... "get over it, stop being ungrateful, all couples go through

this". Well I know that, and I now it will all pay off in the end, I am beyond excited for this next stepping stone in our lives. I guess I should just be happy that we had that first year together! Well what can I say ... I guess I can add to my lists of obsession: Jake!!!

Here it is ....

So I've never blogged before and I've thought about it for a long time... I need to blog... so here it is ... the start of our blog. (You know how they say "what's mine is yours and what's yours is mine"... well that's how it's gonna be with this blog I guess, when it comes to Jake and I). I've been telling Jake for months now... "I'm gonna start a blog for us I'm gonna start one... really I am". So finally last night after months of my brother Dave haggling me about my "lame site" ... I said "That's it ... the blog starts tomorrow".

The funny thing is I've always thought ... can I have a blog... do I have enough to talk about... I mean ... I have thoughts... believe it or not... most of the time they are pretty random and I think it's amazing how I think about one thing and in a matter of seconds the thought has transitioned into something totally different. But then I decided... well yes.. I CAN do it... I used to be an avid journal writer and then a few years ago I some how dropped that habit, so hopefully this one will stick. Now that wasn't the funny thing ... the real funny thing is that I thought "can I do this" ... and when I told my sister Rebekah that I was starting a blog she said "nice... do you have enough to write about?" ... hahaha I guess I'll find stuff :D ... so ... if you are ever bored by my posts ... too bad... lol ... and if you think they are interesting or funny... GREAT!

So there it is ... the Blog has officially been started ... (and Dave my site is now way COOL!)