Tuesday, September 14, 2010

A Torn Feeling

As you may have noticed I went with an "Autumn" based theme for the blog for right now, the reasoning for that is ... well I thought it was obvious. I LOVE AUTUMN. I absolutely love this time of year. The cool breeze, the light rain, the color of the leaves. It reminds me of my childhood in Northern California, I miss those days of walking home from school (never thought I'd say that) and the feel of Autumn in the air, coming home to the smell of fresh baked bread... mmmmmm.... My excitement for this time of year is beyond expression and my desire to be a cute little stay at home wifey is greater than ever. I spend time at work just imagining having a cute decorated Autumn themed living room/home, all the wonderful homemade meals I can make and or bake (if only I had the time to do so). The feel of Autumn is in the air, Halloween decorations will soon be emerging and believe me do I have plans for that one!Oh the memories of the past and memories to be made.

Now you may be wondering with my love for this time of year why in the world would I be having this torn feeling well I'll tell you why.... my favorite season is upon us however at the same time my sweet husband will be starting school. Now I'm not saying that I'm not happy that he is starting school because I am. I am beyond excited for him and so happy to see how happy and excited HE is about this new adventure we are about to embrace together, he is getting closer bit by bit to fulfilling his dreams, however.... I am a bit selfish.
I can't express how much I have loved these past 15 months of being married, every night coming home to my sweety, every night sitting down and having dinner with him, going to bed early or staying up late, doing what we want when we want but more importantly we got to be together. My favorite place to be is with Jake! And now I have to share my time with something else :(. I guess you could say it's a torn feeling x2 I can't wait for Autumn, I am so excited for Jake to start school .... but I have to stop being selfish ...hahahahaha sounds ridiculous I know.


I know what you might be thinking ... "get over it, stop being ungrateful, all couples go through
this". Well I know that, and I now it will all pay off in the end, I am beyond excited for this next stepping stone in our lives. I guess I should just be happy that we had that first year together! Well what can I say ... I guess I can add to my lists of obsession: Jake!!!
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6 comments:

  1. All new things take time to get used to! and of course it's hard to let go of quality time when you are away from each other all day but in the end as you said, the results will be good.

    Maybe it would help to pick a few projects that you can work on in the evenings when he is at school, finish up your scrapbook, learn to sew, this will give you something to do and ways for you to grow too while he is learning and growing at school :)

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  2. Julia ... I like the way you think :D ... I'm actually gonna get back into swimming .... hahaha that will be good for my health... but the sewing sounds fun too!!! Mary has gotten into that recently so guess what's on my Christmas Wish list!

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  3. Swimming sounds great too! I love them both actually! I know that having something to do won't make it 100% easier but I know for me at least it does help a lot! Dusty often works late and after the kids go to bed the house gets really quiet!

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  4. can I just say that I know EXACTLY how you feel. Well, maybe not exactly, but at the beginning of every semester I get what I call post-semester-starting depression. It stinks when your sweetie is more of a weekend companion, but yes, I think it will be worth it.

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  5. Hi Debs!! thanks for following my blog, now I am going to follow yours, Ruben always tells me about you and that you are a great person and now I am going to get to know you better in your blog and hopefully become good friends!

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